阿迪?阿弟?

今天, 去看附近的歌台...
原本打算去吃东西的, 怎知...妈妈要听那些没有钱买衣的人唱歌...
为什么讲没有钱买衣呢? 因为啊...她们的衣啊, 简直是少之又少...露了肩膀又露肚子,露了肚子还不够, 连屁股都快露出来了...
唉, 她们还真可怜啊...
看着看着...觉得...有点想丢鸡蛋的冲动...
那个主唱的声音有够难听的....简直是破坏了我的听觉...
这还不打紧,又在那边摇摇摇...害我有点消化不良,快吐了....

在我快把眼皮给磕上的时候, 主唱说, 她们有邀请到一位特别嘉宾...
我心想,一定是骗的....不然就是那种老姨老伯的人...
那里知道...那个特别嘉宾的来头也不小...
他是那个写黄品源唱的'小薇'的制作人...
还有周华键的不知道什么鬼歌...
他就是阿迪@阿弟....
我也不懂他是真人假人...
因为我家这个地方啊...连来过的人也未必知道这个地方名什么...
他有可能来到这里吗?可能认识这里吗?
我也不懂....

我只是觉得...他有点不够自信...
他来这里,也可以说要宣传他的个人专缉...
他让他那所谓的'干妈', (他干妈可以说是我不喜欢的人之一,平常的为人就是把鼻子朝着天走路(骄傲)),帮他把专缉一个一个去问要不要买....
我当然....没有买啦...当时没带钱啊...

为什么我觉得他不够自信呢?
因为啊...他干妈想让他到另边的人朝去砰砰运气...因为卖得不是很理想...
可是他却说算了...
为什么我知道她们的对话呢?
不用讲了啦...我会一点唇语的嘛...

我觉得...他应该去试试问看...也许有可能会卖出几张也不一定...
可是他连试也不试...就这样把一个可以让别人听听自己的创作的歌的机会给毁灭了...
其实...他的歌...瞒不错的...总比那些没有唱歌的潜能的人来得好...
还能当主唱...唉...

我想....
阿迪...是不错的创作歌手...
最重要的是...要自信些...
社会几乎要讲到乱的一句话....
做人要有信心,才能成功...
加油咯!!!

我发现...
我鸡婆的要死...
哈哈哈...
加油咯!!!

我选对的人来做朋友了吗?

am i choose the right ppl be my friend?

i think i'm not...

i also don't know y...

in my dictionary, a friend, is know what i am thinking, but never say out( depend on situation),

but, i don't know y....

i hate and scare this friend knowing about myself,

i am feeling not safe, cause i just know that, the friend not good in keeping secret,

the friend feel that, he/she is only the ppl that knowing my secret and hope to share it with others ppl...this friend may feel that it is fun...

i don't know how to describe the friend behavior also...

i think may be is the friend let others know what i don't wish to make it be public...

once someone told me the things for sure, i had getting shock,

i still can't believe that, this friend can doing such so keji eh things...

at the 1st time, i still can't accept it...

i am thinking for may be again,

may be is the friend suddenly say out,

may be is the friend no heart do to that,

may be...

may be...

may be...

but...

after a long period of time,

i know that, the friend's behavior actually is like that...

after i know, i am upset...
sadness, anger and can't regret the friend also...

the friend had make me feel that i'm a loser...
already 20 years liao still don't know how to know a friend...

haiz....

start from today, i won't let this friend knowing my feeling, my thinking, my secret also!!!

and i am choosing that, i will not join this friend as closer as before...

yup, i am trying to far away from this friend...

is this friend make me to do so...

i need to protect myself...

from again getting hurt, getting shocked and getting scared...

一朝被蛇咬, 十年怕草绳...

我怎么了?

我最近怎么了?

老是不用心,

不专心,

不责任,

不体谅,

没信心...

我甚至,

小气,

赖帐,

懒惰....

妈呀!!!
这不是以前中学的我吗?!!!??
我不是说过我不要回到过去吗???
为什么??!!

我已经没有时间了!!!

我老了!!!我还不懂自爱!!!

我怎么帮我爸爸减轻负担啊???

怎么办??

我快要失去我那两年前, 那个的我了!!!
为什么???
为什么???
难道是发生了那件事的原故吗???
虽然我还再逃避, 但是这明明是两回事啊!!!
我再不醒来...我想我这辈子完蛋了!!!

happy blogger gathering!

yup! today is the day!!!
rush come penang just because of the blogger gathering!
go there having the quite nice buffet...
having the luckily draw, game, and others activities...
and we are the luckily table...
our table get many gift!!!
muahaha!!!!!!!!!

next year...
if i still have the chance, i will going again...
at least it still give me a good memory...hahaha...

have a nice day.

let's go join this!!!!

hey! for all my beloved freinds and visitor!!!
here have a gathering in penang for all blogger!!!
nice to meet u all that day!

for more information
please search
http://www.roundegg.com/bloggers/register.aspx

we r gowing up!!!!

recently...i realise that...

most our m10 ppl r growing up!!!

they r starting know that...

what they truly need for their good.

what they need to do for they educate.

what they must behave when communicate in the society.

who they should treat good n who they shouldn't.

n many many ....

this process, is a very hard way for them to cover...

they may sad

may upset

may hopeless

may stress

but...

they also may feel happy, satisfy, mature and also won't feel stress anymore...



haha!

it is a good changes for us in the process that we need go throw!!!

it symbolizes that, we r growing up...

we r staring thinking mature...

yeah!!!!

and...

luckily...

we can undergo it together...

we speak out our feeling to each other...

we complain

we scold

and we kap siao also...

haha...

and it had make our friendship become more close to each other...

thus, we will always miss to each other when we r graduated...



now, i can image that,

the time when we come out gathering when we r having our own job...

married eh come with husband or wife,

may also with the little kids,

and might also with a big big stomach..

haha!!!

no married eh, come with their lover, and we, M10 ppl will talk, or discuss or gossip their lover....

in the 1st look

in the money level

in the working situation

and see who's son/daughter

haha....

so funny!!!



now already look forward to that time...

hehe...



now, the way still far...

and we need study as hard as we can....

we cannot say, we try la...try and see how 1st....

no! we need to say, we must do our best!

never say try, only spend all the mind that we have on the studies!

if not, we will say: aiyo, if i know it early i will study hard lo...

that time is too late le...



so, m10, study hard ya...

good luck and gambateh!

photo!!!

finally...
i can received the photos...

and the more will be receiving soon...

need having for the mid-term test 1st....

just slow slow enjoy the photo ya...

have a nice day....

^^

the day they give me surprise

me kena shock until don't what need to say....

still with blur blur and red red face

my first time, 1.5 kg eh birthday cake...

my pose with the cake....

hey! look here la.... sun nee and giek khim oi....

20 ppl and wei mei.... that busy take photo for us.....

wei mei ar, thank you ya...

finally wei mei appear le....

me and the girls

the first big card that i never received....





the cover of the card

second page




zoom in....

middle....

the last page....

the process that they doing the card....





mr xiao fu and little fat eh 38 show

mr SAH(siao ah hsien) eh HULK hand

there is only two picture that i received....( too little liao la)



And the day when i received the card...

we all use the purple ribbon set the hair....


1st is jia pin

second is chui shuan

and then kar ting

swee ying...

when in a fat turn... what he busying with???

oh, read the news...

what!!!??

read the entertainment???!!!

the last.... is me!!!

mami ya!!!!

THE END OF THE 38 DAY......

and do u all remind that, the purple ribbon actually is dirty eh....

OH MY GOD!!!!!!
the ribbon got these 2 guys eh hong kong foot eh smell....

a super surpising birthday

when my real birthday...i having my class as normal...
and many m10 classmate wish a happy birthday to me...
and also the m9 eh apple and a miao...
thank you them very much...

after finish class...feel every tired...
having bath and start to post at blog....
suddenly, swee ying call me to ask for her pen-drive...
she is waiting outside my house...
me rush go downstairs from 3rd floor...

when i walking outside to past the pen-drive...
kar ting suddenly appear with the fruit cake...
and with a fat,jia pin and chui shuan...
aiyoyo....
really don't know what need to do ar....
really really surprise....
kar ting told me that she can't help me celebrate the birthday...
mana tahu, she come celebrate with me...
really touch...
thank you ya...

and, after we enjoy the fruit cake...
they ask me fast fast open the birthday card that they done...
wao....
a very very big, special, nice and unparalleled eh birthday card...
i never received such birthday card before...
it is with all m10 classmate eh photo, with the memory that we have join together...
really really unforgotten memory...
and also with a purple ribbon...
haha...
wei mei and swee ying said that,
this card is prepare by m10 classmate...
and wei mei, swee ying, yen kin, sze sze ,chee hsien, jia pin and fat and many many do the more...
really really feel thanks full to them...
thank you very much!!!!
for this card,
i like it!!!
i love it!!!

after reading the card....a fat them take the ribbon do some special hairstyle...
all look very very sampat...and funny also...hahaha...
we had take many many photo untill the camera low battery...
we really 38...
haha...

i never forget this year eh birthday...
it is so unforgotten...
really happy!!!
haha...

once again,

thank you ya!!!!

i am really really proud of u all...hahaha!!!

a gift from wei mei....

that prepare by her, sze sze and 'peak goar'....

haha....

taking from sushi king, with all girls and a gua(a fat)

behide the photo....have sze sze eh wishes
and 'peak goar' eh 38 thinking...

sze sze ar...

ur chinese language level so deep....

like writing a peom....

but....

i understand also la....

i will take care by myself...

thank you ya....

'peak goar' ar,

everyday,

every lesson of class,

everytime u seen me,

u just ask me,

你跟a fat有发展的机会吗?

and my ans is,

u don't ki siao...

and now u still ask again,

and u won't sian eh meh?

me ans u until sian liao u know...

now, let me tell u my ans...

u mai ki sioa la!

anyway, thank you ya....

haha...

unforgotten birthday...

my classmate, miss rainbow and miss swee ying,

yesterday had told me that,

they wan go queens bay after tuition,

but actually i don't wish to go..cause i need rush come back,

my family are going celebrate my birthday at home...
but they all, haiz...never let me choose...

must is must.... me need follow, no more arguing....
they just promise that, 8.30 sure can reach home...
i also not sure that i need to follow or not...

but today, as normal...wake up late...rush take bath, having breakfast within 5 minutes...

having the sleepy class as normal...

then rush go back take bath, wan rush going tuition...

i hate waiting... but i need wait also...

wait until 3.30, really lost patient,

call to mickey, she pick up...and i not yet say 'hello'

she just bla bla bla, tell me that, come liao come liao, wan reach liao wan reach liao...

then she close the phone...

I'm still reminding, what she say ar?

finally a fat them come, they told me that, a sir ask them go gurney buy cake...

i feel pelik pelik...but just think it as normal...

there don't have the cake that they want to buy,

so they chose not to buy,

and i am thinking that, is the time rush to tuition,

but, why he walk along the red box?

siao liao ar?

then, the surprise things happened...

i saw almost 70% of my classmate and miss hui ping all are in the soul garden...

i 'm still can't clear what had happen,

they just sang the birthday song with a very big and nice fruit cake...

that time i just mention that, i wan go tuition la!!!

don't play liao la....

but no body care me...

after that i know, the tuition had cancelled...

and they plan to celebrate my b'day....

really make me scare.

really get shock.

but...

it is really the most happiest b'day that i never undergo...

1st time, so many people celebrate my b'day...

i'm really proud of my m10 classmate...

hehe...

after i reach home,

busying send the massage for those who celebrate my b'day...

just wanna say :thank you very much!

send until find my husband...

haha...

after wake up, my cousin ask me go prepare...

they had buy me a cake...

again, a surprising...

with a fruit cake....

haha...

this year, should be the unforgotten birthday in my life...

1st time,

so many people celebrate my birthday...

1st time,

having 2 birthday cake in one day...

muahaha!!!

once again....thank you very much ya....

p/s:

wei mei ar...

thank you ya, busy taking the photo for us...

but....

i won't say the three words to u one,

i just say two words nia.

thank you!!!

cause i love my lee hom nia...

haha...

sensitivity analysis

today when in financial management tutorial, my lecturer call up my name and ask me,

am i understand the meaning of sensitivity analysis,

i just shake my head.

i really don't know what is that.

after the explanation, it is same with "what if'.

always ask about what if, to find out the result.

after i know the meaning, i understand one life theory again.

haha...

in our daily life, we should always ask our self about 'what if'...

the word of 'what if' in Chinese is 如果...

y?

let me use Chinese language to tell u...

(paise la, my grammar very poor one)

(and let me say in mandarin, it can clearly shows that what i wan to say)

在我们的日常生活中,

我们常常会说,

哎哟!早知道我就这样做了咯...

如果每个人都有早知道的特异功能,

那么世界上就不会有乞丐了啦...

我记得, 有一次看凤冠卫视的名人访问节目,

有一位名人说,

他常常抱着敏感的态度去对待他的事业,

所以, 他的事业才能如此成功.

每当他要完成一份任务时,

他会问自己,

如果这任务不能成功, 哪会怎样?

就是因为有这样的态度,

他会绞尽脑汁,想一想,

到底要怎样做,

才能成功的完成这份任务...

所以他都会尽力地把所有的事情做到最好...

就算明天就要签合约了,

若是发现到一点的错误.

他一定会把哪份合约重新做过...

如果他已知道那份合约有错误,

但没有把合约改过;

并且让顾客看那份有错误的合约,

要是让顾客发现指错误;

这不但让他们签不到合约,

还赚不到钱,

还得赔上公司原有的信誉.

到是候, 他是不是会说,

哎哟!早知道我先把合约改了才让顾客签...

请问

还来得及吗?

所以,不官怎样都好,

就算他的员工做到吐血;

他一定不会让有错误的合约给顾客签...

所以,

他会有今天如此成功的事业...

所以, 我才会说:

we should always ask our self 'what if, i do like that?'

'what if, i don't do like that?'

so that, we will not 遗憾 in future...

am i right?

i'm not small gas ppl

i want tell my M10 classmate...
i'm not a small gas ppl...
sometimes...i may show my black black face, but it doesn't means that i'm angry...
is means that, i'm thinking somethings seriously and can't smile nia la...

if i'm angry, i won't care the ppl that i'm angry...
the ppl sure know one...
i'm easily show off my emote one...

but, i think la... i had try my best to control my emote also...
it is hard for me to control myself, since my ting ting not around...
and i can't straight away tell my feeling to her as like as before...
but, at least i had try to control my emote liao la...

so... friends ar...tolong sikit la...
don't treat me as the ppl in 'small gas level' la...
if not i'll tired to tell u all that i'm not angry...

my feeling on died....

黑白老鼠
有一個人在森林中漫遊的時候，突然遇見了一隻飢餓的老虎，老虎大吼一聲就撲了上來。他立刻用生平最大的力氣和最快的速度逃開，但是老虎緊追不捨， 他一直跑一直跑一直跑，最後被老虎逼入了斷崖邊上。 站在懸崖邊上，他想：「與其被老虎捉到，活活被咬、肢解，還不如跳入懸崖，說不定還有一線生機。」他縱身跳入懸崖， 非常幸運的卡在一棵樹上，那是長在斷崖邊的梅樹， 樹上結滿了梅子。
正在慶幸的時候， 他聽到斷崖深處傳來巨大的吼聲，往崖底望去，原來有一只兇猛的獅子正抬頭看著他，獅子的聲音使他心顫， 但轉念一想：「獅子與老虎是相同的猛獸，被甚麼吃掉，都是一樣的。」
當他一放下心， 又聽見了一陣聲音，仔細一看，一黑一白的兩隻老鼠，正用力地咬著梅樹的樹幹。 他先是一陣驚慌，立刻又放心了，他想：「被老鼠咬斷樹幹跌死，總比被獅子咬好。」情緒平復下來後， 他感到肚子有點餓，看到梅子長得正好， 就採了一些吃起來。他覺得一輩子從沒吃過那麼好吃的梅子，找到一個三角形樹丫休息， 他想著：「既然遲早都要死，不如在死前好好睡上一覺吧！」他在樹上沉沉的睡去了。
睡醒之後，他發現黑白老鼠不見了， 老虎、獅子也不見了。他順著樹枝， 小心翼翼的攀上懸崖， 終於脫離險境。
原來就在他睡著的時候， 飢餓的老虎按捺不住，終於大吼一聲， 跳下懸崖。 黑白老鼠聽到老虎的吼聲，驚慌逃走了。跳下懸崖的老虎與崖下的獅子展開激烈的打鬥，雙雙負傷逃走了。

由我們誕生那一刻開始，苦難．就像飢餓的老虎一直追趕著我們，死亡，就像一頭兇猛的獅子， 一直在懸崖的盡頭等待，白天和黑夜的交替，就像黑白老鼠，不停地正用力咬著我們暫時棲身的生活之樹，總有一天我們會落入獅子的口中 。既然知道了生命中最壞的情景是死亡，唯一的路，就是安然地享受樹上甜美的果子， 然後安心地睡覺，只有存著這樣單純的心、少慾望、多一點赤子之心。

最近常常聽到朋友的親友去世的消息，除了安慰了幾句外好像什麼都不能做了恐怕有一天自己亦會成為別人口中的壞消息所以你們有沒有好好的享受你在世上的每一分每一秒?

如果剛才你和另一半或是和家人為了芝麻綠豆的事鬧翻了，現在頭頂還在生煙的話，請你看看那晴朗的天空和那飄渺的白雲，其實你又錯過了美好的一天呀 !

有些朋友雖然不常聯絡，卻偶爾寄個E-mail、也許是一些笑話、溫馨小品，或是小遊戲給你，這表示他一直在關心著你，他將你放在心裡，也珍惜彼此的友誼。

this article actually is copy from army's blog....
from this article... i learn some life theory....

although i'm young ppl....but i have a very traditional thinking...
in bad words, i'm very pantang some things one....
every times, i not allowed many many things until my cousin mostly can't tahan with me...
there are such things like i not allowed my family cut their nail at night;
when in the July of Chinese calender, I'll ask them try to avoid wear black or red colour clothes and one more things is i'm very pantang to talking about the died...

actually in recently... i usually thinking about the died...
i don't know why...
not i wan think about it but it usually run out in my mind...
i thinking that if i go... who will do what action?
my parents...
my sis and brother...
my cousin...
and the ppl that i most hate in my family...
and also my friends....

may be they will cry....
may be they will sad...
may be they will hurt....
and may be they will feel that, they are luckily...

i don't know who will doing what action...
and, i'll ask myself that...
am i care about this....
actually that is NO!
the things that i most care is about my studies...for recently... and then it should be my family member...
but... the things that i most care, is the things that i'm most not treasure...

for studies, i'm not try my best on my duties...
in short, i'm not a responsible students...
haiz

for family, i'm also not treasure for the things that what i have now...
my parent able to give me the luxury, but i'm still not hardworking to get good result in order to give a good feedback for them...
my parent able to give me the the needs that i want, but i'm still not treasure for the needs and, i ask for more and more...
my parent try to full fill the things that i want again and again, and i'm starting scare, worried and hopeless to myself ...

haiz...
when i telling my sis and my cousin about my feeling...
they are proud of me....
they say that, me grows up le...
have mature thinking....
they are happy....
they think that...
that's a good news for them.....
swt...

year2 sem 2

year 2 sem 2....
now already week 5....
we have passed up the management accounting eh assignment...
and next week the Corporate Law eh assignment should be ready...
if not we will lack of time to do revision for the mid-term test which will be hell on week 7 and week 8... the weeks that coming very very soon...one week having 2 test....all need memories about the theory... and must know how to do the calculation also...haiz....a hard sem 2...

about the assignment...I'm feeling apologist to my group member... haiz...me do nothings...
and until the due date, i just only ask for work...actually since last sem... me not so hard to do any assignment anymore...i just leave those assignments to mickey, a fat only....and me just do what? only the cover page....sometimes, i feel that I'm going to be the person that ppl not hope to join with...and i know it might happen, and i know this is bad things... but... i really no mood do the assignment... i don't know y... it seem like there is no my work in this assignment...haiz...may be is our group orientation not so organised well.... why? because, i just let my group member settle all the work and i just do nothings....me is the bad group member... right? and no ppl will trust it , only my group member know it....haiz...a hard sem 2...
once again...i'm so so sorry to my group member... paise...

since the end of Oct... i get sick... may be is because of my father... now already two weeks liao... but also feeling tired, feeling not so well ...haiz....a hard sem 2 ....

haiz...just only start the sem 2 nia... me had say hard hard hard... then how about my next level eh education?
haiz!!!


everyday i should tell myself only one sentence...
I MUST BE A RESPONSIBLE STUDENT!!!

haiz...

paise ya....
me not yet ready to let u all know my blog....
but u all can search it...
me quite shock also....
inside before eh blog.... it not nice to see also la....
all got rude rude eh word...
and another eh me that like siao lang ... have the black heart... no thanksfull or good good eh mind....
and me also not so hope that my private things, my feeling is going publicing...
and one more things is i also don't know how to set which article should be appear and which is not....
i alwalys say wan let swee ying teach me but... forget also...
and i think better i delete before eh blog...and create again a new blog....
hehe...

p/s:
>sze sze
thank you ya....
if i have any problem on the studies i'm sure go and find u one...
don't worry....
haha...

> my army
army!!! haha... thank for welcome me for the bloging o....