my feeling on died....

黑白老鼠
有一個人在森林中漫遊的時候，突然遇見了一隻飢餓的老虎，老虎大吼一聲就撲了上來。他立刻用生平最大的力氣和最快的速度逃開，但是老虎緊追不捨， 他一直跑一直跑一直跑，最後被老虎逼入了斷崖邊上。 站在懸崖邊上，他想：「與其被老虎捉到，活活被咬、肢解，還不如跳入懸崖，說不定還有一線生機。」他縱身跳入懸崖， 非常幸運的卡在一棵樹上，那是長在斷崖邊的梅樹， 樹上結滿了梅子。
正在慶幸的時候， 他聽到斷崖深處傳來巨大的吼聲，往崖底望去，原來有一只兇猛的獅子正抬頭看著他，獅子的聲音使他心顫， 但轉念一想：「獅子與老虎是相同的猛獸，被甚麼吃掉，都是一樣的。」
當他一放下心， 又聽見了一陣聲音，仔細一看，一黑一白的兩隻老鼠，正用力地咬著梅樹的樹幹。 他先是一陣驚慌，立刻又放心了，他想：「被老鼠咬斷樹幹跌死，總比被獅子咬好。」情緒平復下來後， 他感到肚子有點餓，看到梅子長得正好， 就採了一些吃起來。他覺得一輩子從沒吃過那麼好吃的梅子，找到一個三角形樹丫休息， 他想著：「既然遲早都要死，不如在死前好好睡上一覺吧！」他在樹上沉沉的睡去了。
睡醒之後，他發現黑白老鼠不見了， 老虎、獅子也不見了。他順著樹枝， 小心翼翼的攀上懸崖， 終於脫離險境。
原來就在他睡著的時候， 飢餓的老虎按捺不住，終於大吼一聲， 跳下懸崖。 黑白老鼠聽到老虎的吼聲，驚慌逃走了。跳下懸崖的老虎與崖下的獅子展開激烈的打鬥，雙雙負傷逃走了。

由我們誕生那一刻開始，苦難．就像飢餓的老虎一直追趕著我們，死亡，就像一頭兇猛的獅子， 一直在懸崖的盡頭等待，白天和黑夜的交替，就像黑白老鼠，不停地正用力咬著我們暫時棲身的生活之樹，總有一天我們會落入獅子的口中 。既然知道了生命中最壞的情景是死亡，唯一的路，就是安然地享受樹上甜美的果子， 然後安心地睡覺，只有存著這樣單純的心、少慾望、多一點赤子之心。

最近常常聽到朋友的親友去世的消息，除了安慰了幾句外好像什麼都不能做了恐怕有一天自己亦會成為別人口中的壞消息所以你們有沒有好好的享受你在世上的每一分每一秒?

如果剛才你和另一半或是和家人為了芝麻綠豆的事鬧翻了，現在頭頂還在生煙的話，請你看看那晴朗的天空和那飄渺的白雲，其實你又錯過了美好的一天呀 !

有些朋友雖然不常聯絡，卻偶爾寄個E-mail、也許是一些笑話、溫馨小品，或是小遊戲給你，這表示他一直在關心著你，他將你放在心裡，也珍惜彼此的友誼。

this article actually is copy from army's blog....
from this article... i learn some life theory....

although i'm young ppl....but i have a very traditional thinking...
in bad words, i'm very pantang some things one....
every times, i not allowed many many things until my cousin mostly can't tahan with me...
there are such things like i not allowed my family cut their nail at night;
when in the July of Chinese calender, I'll ask them try to avoid wear black or red colour clothes and one more things is i'm very pantang to talking about the died...

actually in recently... i usually thinking about the died...
i don't know why...
not i wan think about it but it usually run out in my mind...
i thinking that if i go... who will do what action?
my parents...
my sis and brother...
my cousin...
and the ppl that i most hate in my family...
and also my friends....

may be they will cry....
may be they will sad...
may be they will hurt....
and may be they will feel that, they are luckily...

i don't know who will doing what action...
and, i'll ask myself that...
am i care about this....
actually that is NO!
the things that i most care is about my studies...for recently... and then it should be my family member...
but... the things that i most care, is the things that i'm most not treasure...

for studies, i'm not try my best on my duties...
in short, i'm not a responsible students...
haiz

for family, i'm also not treasure for the things that what i have now...
my parent able to give me the luxury, but i'm still not hardworking to get good result in order to give a good feedback for them...
my parent able to give me the the needs that i want, but i'm still not treasure for the needs and, i ask for more and more...
my parent try to full fill the things that i want again and again, and i'm starting scare, worried and hopeless to myself ...

haiz...
when i telling my sis and my cousin about my feeling...
they are proud of me....
they say that, me grows up le...
have mature thinking....
they are happy....
they think that...
that's a good news for them.....
swt...